The Shoe and the Doormat

ishot-62I think obsessively.

I wish I didn’t, but I do. I offer my heart and time to pretty much anyone. And I like that about myself. I eagerly empathize with souls around me – even if it takes me to dark places – simply because I care, and because I have probably been there or nearby.

I don’t know when to stop and have a tendency to overstay my welcome, and this hurts me. I need to break the cycle because I have been focusing on a soul that sucks in my energy like a black hole and leaves me with little energy to take care of myself.

It has been my choice to feed this soul and I am left starving for reciprocation that most likely will never happen.

I am angry because I am sad.

I have a choice to make: do I linger in purgatory or do I step into the pain of freedom?

I reluctantly choose to block this soul on Facebook.

I reluctantly choose to delete this soul from my contacts on my phone.

My choices are not ones of spite or detest for this soul.

It is an act of love for myself that has gone buried in petty thoughts.

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3 thoughts on “The Shoe and the Doormat

  1. It sounds selfish but you are the first person to take care of. I learned this lesson the hard way and once I was beyond myself and about to lose my sanity I woke up. Take care and make the right decision for yourself!

  2. We must protect our souls in order to be helpful to others. When one person is a soul sucking black hole, we lose ourselves and become impotent to help others, or ourselves. I support your decision, you did the right thing. Do not let this change your heart. Let it strengthen you. Let it be a testimony to your strength and love of self. Peace, Bruce Penton.

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